Sunday, November 14, 2004
Sometimes Life is Good
Now, I should be wary of writing something like that as the last time I wrote a "hey, look I’m happy" blog, everything went down the shitter pretty damn quick. But, I’ve never really been one to be superstitious (unlike my friends who would bring trolls to school with them in high school as a form of good like so that their magic "Ju-Ju" could help them. I teased them mercilessly...and they in turn made the trolls inflict upon me the bad-luck "Ja-Ja." Of course, I had perfect grades in High School, so it clearly did not work. Ah memories.) Now, what was I saying...ah yes, I’ll go out on a limb and say I’m in a pretty good mood. Let’s examine why.
So I’ve been stressing out about my many BIG things due this month. I turned in my 20 page "short" story last Monday. I have a research paper due tomorrow. I gave my Professor a rough draft of it on Thursday and when I met with her on Friday, she basically told me it was perfect and I didn’t need to change a thing. THAT would put anyone in a good mood. So that’s two down, two to go. My other research paper is due next Tuesday, and I haven’t even started researching it, however, I did find out that my Professor and not my T.A. will be grading them, and this is a very good thing as the Professor is one of those guys who just seems to love everything and will probably be a much easier grader than the T.A. Finally I have a paper due the Monday after Thanksgiving which I’m not really worried about at all. I’m going to write on Frankenstein, and I could basically do that in my sleep. So school is pretty good right now.
Then there’s the fact that in 10 short days I will be home for Thanksgiving. I still don’t know how long I will be there, but I do know that I am going. And he is so happy about it. We’ve been talking on the phone more than ever and rather than having tense, slightly angry conversations like we were having a couple weeks back, they have all been wonderful conversations in which both of us are uber annoying about how much we miss each other. Really, I pity anyone who has to listen to us. But hey, I’m happy. I can’t wait for Winter Break.
And finally, I’m in a good mood because I had so much fun yesterday. I went to the game and it was just awesome. My big sis was crazy drunk and that was possibly the most entertaining thing I have ever seen. I nearly killed myself trying to see Alyssa Milano who was on the field at the game and then a large group of us took a picture with her and my friend said I could have a copy. That was very exciting, as anyone who knows me well knows that I have loved Alyssa Milano since she was on Who’s the Boss...and she is in fact my "If I was a Lesbian" along with Angelina Jolie. And of course the actual game itself was great as usual. I was a little disappointed that we did not break 50 as we have yet to do that this season and I want us to do it at least once. All well...save that for when we kill UCLA...or for Notre Dame, either one will do.
Anyway, the rest of the elections for the Helenes is on Wednesday and I am uber-nervous, but I will most likely be writing something on that as well, and hopefully it will be good news! :)
Now, I should be wary of writing something like that as the last time I wrote a "hey, look I’m happy" blog, everything went down the shitter pretty damn quick. But, I’ve never really been one to be superstitious (unlike my friends who would bring trolls to school with them in high school as a form of good like so that their magic "Ju-Ju" could help them. I teased them mercilessly...and they in turn made the trolls inflict upon me the bad-luck "Ja-Ja." Of course, I had perfect grades in High School, so it clearly did not work. Ah memories.) Now, what was I saying...ah yes, I’ll go out on a limb and say I’m in a pretty good mood. Let’s examine why.
So I’ve been stressing out about my many BIG things due this month. I turned in my 20 page "short" story last Monday. I have a research paper due tomorrow. I gave my Professor a rough draft of it on Thursday and when I met with her on Friday, she basically told me it was perfect and I didn’t need to change a thing. THAT would put anyone in a good mood. So that’s two down, two to go. My other research paper is due next Tuesday, and I haven’t even started researching it, however, I did find out that my Professor and not my T.A. will be grading them, and this is a very good thing as the Professor is one of those guys who just seems to love everything and will probably be a much easier grader than the T.A. Finally I have a paper due the Monday after Thanksgiving which I’m not really worried about at all. I’m going to write on Frankenstein, and I could basically do that in my sleep. So school is pretty good right now.
Then there’s the fact that in 10 short days I will be home for Thanksgiving. I still don’t know how long I will be there, but I do know that I am going. And he is so happy about it. We’ve been talking on the phone more than ever and rather than having tense, slightly angry conversations like we were having a couple weeks back, they have all been wonderful conversations in which both of us are uber annoying about how much we miss each other. Really, I pity anyone who has to listen to us. But hey, I’m happy. I can’t wait for Winter Break.
And finally, I’m in a good mood because I had so much fun yesterday. I went to the game and it was just awesome. My big sis was crazy drunk and that was possibly the most entertaining thing I have ever seen. I nearly killed myself trying to see Alyssa Milano who was on the field at the game and then a large group of us took a picture with her and my friend said I could have a copy. That was very exciting, as anyone who knows me well knows that I have loved Alyssa Milano since she was on Who’s the Boss...and she is in fact my "If I was a Lesbian" along with Angelina Jolie. And of course the actual game itself was great as usual. I was a little disappointed that we did not break 50 as we have yet to do that this season and I want us to do it at least once. All well...save that for when we kill UCLA...or for Notre Dame, either one will do.
Anyway, the rest of the elections for the Helenes is on Wednesday and I am uber-nervous, but I will most likely be writing something on that as well, and hopefully it will be good news! :)
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Elections Suck
So, I wasn’t planning to actually talk about the U.S. elections, but then on the same day I found out that this country is under the control of a moron once more and that California is too stupid to pass a proposition that needs to be passed...I also went through my own election process...and lost. SO, I figured that’s enough stuff to talk about under the heading of Elections Suck.
First off, the biggie. Four more years stuck with this man and I am terrified that it could be a life changing four years. It is very likely that he will be appointing a new Supreme Court Justice and he will of course appoint one with his own values, and everything that women have worked for for the past, oh I don’t know...fifty years will go right down the shitter. Now anyone who knows me knows I am pro choice...I am a self proclaimed very liberal, almost too liberal for the liberals, democrat. I am open minded to everything except close mindedness. So, that’s established. I am 99% sure that I myself would never be able to go through with getting an abortion. Of course, most of the time I felt that way I was under the impression that I would only ever be having sex when I was married, and if I happened to get pregnant, I would be prepared to have a child. Things change. Still...even if I was in college and I got pregnant, as much as I would want to stick to the plan I have in life, I don’t think I’d actually be able to go through with the abortion. So we have established that I am not pro abortion. However, there is still that 1% of me that isn’t so sure. And if I am being responsible and still manage to get pregnant and I know I can’t afford to have a child and I want to be able to continue to get my education so that I may achieve everything that I have worked for in life, you better believe that I want to have the CHOICE of what to do about that pregnancy, and I’ll be goddamned if some MAN is going to make that decision for me. He tries to use his values to justify his decision, but guess what, I’m not Christian and neither are a lot of people who live in this country. WE should not have to live under HIS values. We have out own values to contend with.
So you see...that’s the only thing I thought about when I heard Bush was reelected. War stuff, tax stuff...I really don’t care. Both candidates were pretty much the same as far as I was concerned. I’m poor enough that even Republicans won’t raise my taxes and the mistakes were already made in regards to the war and Kerry wouldn’t have been able to do anything more to fix it that Bush can. All I care about is that one issue and I just pray everyone on the Supreme Court can hold on for four more years.
Now, onto stupid California. Three Strikes Law. IT SHOULD ONLY BE APPLIED TO VIOLENT CRIMES!!!! Period. But Nooooooo, this stupid state full of it’s stupid close minded people seem to think that all criminals deserve insanely long sentences even if they are only being tried for something stupid like shoplifting or petty drug possession. I know I go to sleep at night afraid of those people. I mean, give me a break. Half of those people probably assume that anyone who commits a crime is a terrible person. Well, I know some of those ‘terrible people.’ I know drug addicts, drug dealers...I’ve even known a prostitute or two in my day, and let me tell you, they aren’t all horrible people. One of the kindest and smartest people I have ever known is a drug dealer. He is a good person, who is just doing what he can to make money. I don’t agree with what he does, but I’m not going to say he’s a bad person because he does it. But because this law wasn’t changed, good people who would never hurt anyone may go to jail for very long times. It’s just stupid.
And now my own personal election. I ran for Special Events in Helenes and I lost. I screwed up in my speech and forgot to say the plans that I had for the chair if I was elected and instead I talked about how much the Helenes and the community service we do in particular means to me. It’s annoying, because I know that I probably screwed myself over on that one. And at the same time, I wanted it so badly. I know I would have done a great job and it just hurts that once again I was rejected from something I really wanted to do and that I deserved to do. Once again I am not good enough. Why do I keep getting rejected from things that have to do with helping others? I don’t know. I mean, at least the girl who did win will do a good job. She’s super sweet and even asked the VP if we could be co-chairs. I can’t be mad at her for beating me. And all of my friends were there for me after I lost (and I was crying like a moron) to cheer me up. Plus, I’m still running for one more position...but I don’t know how I feel about that one. I really want it, but there are other issues involved now. Eh...I don’t even know anymore. I’m too tired to think and I have a midterm tomorrow.
I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up in four years.
So, I wasn’t planning to actually talk about the U.S. elections, but then on the same day I found out that this country is under the control of a moron once more and that California is too stupid to pass a proposition that needs to be passed...I also went through my own election process...and lost. SO, I figured that’s enough stuff to talk about under the heading of Elections Suck.
First off, the biggie. Four more years stuck with this man and I am terrified that it could be a life changing four years. It is very likely that he will be appointing a new Supreme Court Justice and he will of course appoint one with his own values, and everything that women have worked for for the past, oh I don’t know...fifty years will go right down the shitter. Now anyone who knows me knows I am pro choice...I am a self proclaimed very liberal, almost too liberal for the liberals, democrat. I am open minded to everything except close mindedness. So, that’s established. I am 99% sure that I myself would never be able to go through with getting an abortion. Of course, most of the time I felt that way I was under the impression that I would only ever be having sex when I was married, and if I happened to get pregnant, I would be prepared to have a child. Things change. Still...even if I was in college and I got pregnant, as much as I would want to stick to the plan I have in life, I don’t think I’d actually be able to go through with the abortion. So we have established that I am not pro abortion. However, there is still that 1% of me that isn’t so sure. And if I am being responsible and still manage to get pregnant and I know I can’t afford to have a child and I want to be able to continue to get my education so that I may achieve everything that I have worked for in life, you better believe that I want to have the CHOICE of what to do about that pregnancy, and I’ll be goddamned if some MAN is going to make that decision for me. He tries to use his values to justify his decision, but guess what, I’m not Christian and neither are a lot of people who live in this country. WE should not have to live under HIS values. We have out own values to contend with.
So you see...that’s the only thing I thought about when I heard Bush was reelected. War stuff, tax stuff...I really don’t care. Both candidates were pretty much the same as far as I was concerned. I’m poor enough that even Republicans won’t raise my taxes and the mistakes were already made in regards to the war and Kerry wouldn’t have been able to do anything more to fix it that Bush can. All I care about is that one issue and I just pray everyone on the Supreme Court can hold on for four more years.
Now, onto stupid California. Three Strikes Law. IT SHOULD ONLY BE APPLIED TO VIOLENT CRIMES!!!! Period. But Nooooooo, this stupid state full of it’s stupid close minded people seem to think that all criminals deserve insanely long sentences even if they are only being tried for something stupid like shoplifting or petty drug possession. I know I go to sleep at night afraid of those people. I mean, give me a break. Half of those people probably assume that anyone who commits a crime is a terrible person. Well, I know some of those ‘terrible people.’ I know drug addicts, drug dealers...I’ve even known a prostitute or two in my day, and let me tell you, they aren’t all horrible people. One of the kindest and smartest people I have ever known is a drug dealer. He is a good person, who is just doing what he can to make money. I don’t agree with what he does, but I’m not going to say he’s a bad person because he does it. But because this law wasn’t changed, good people who would never hurt anyone may go to jail for very long times. It’s just stupid.
And now my own personal election. I ran for Special Events in Helenes and I lost. I screwed up in my speech and forgot to say the plans that I had for the chair if I was elected and instead I talked about how much the Helenes and the community service we do in particular means to me. It’s annoying, because I know that I probably screwed myself over on that one. And at the same time, I wanted it so badly. I know I would have done a great job and it just hurts that once again I was rejected from something I really wanted to do and that I deserved to do. Once again I am not good enough. Why do I keep getting rejected from things that have to do with helping others? I don’t know. I mean, at least the girl who did win will do a good job. She’s super sweet and even asked the VP if we could be co-chairs. I can’t be mad at her for beating me. And all of my friends were there for me after I lost (and I was crying like a moron) to cheer me up. Plus, I’m still running for one more position...but I don’t know how I feel about that one. I really want it, but there are other issues involved now. Eh...I don’t even know anymore. I’m too tired to think and I have a midterm tomorrow.
I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up in four years.
